I am on a diet. The first day I was grumpy and my head hurt. The next days I carefully measured out the limited foods I could have and tried to enjoyed the thrill of embarking on a new diet adventure. Then came the day I mistakenly put "basil" (instead of sweet basil) on my salad. I literally cringed as I ate the whole thing. It's amazing what you will eat when you are sooo hungry! Day 4 , I temporarily went off of the diet for just one meal, so I could enjoy a D..E...L...I...C...I...O...U...S "Ladies Royal Tea" , I'd been invited to for lunch. The next day I went straight back on it and had to sit at lunch (with some wonderful long time friends, who'd surprised us by coming to our church service) sipping iced tea, cause I didn't have time to go home and get my "diet food". Would you believe I actually had to give up the ice-cream Sunday ( WITH WHIPPED CREAM AND CHOCOLATE SAUCE!!!) the waiters brought me to celebrate my belated birthday??? Today I have a teeny , tiny headache and need to go shopping for more of the ingredients that are in my diet so I can survive the week. This coming Saturday Mark and I will attend a wedding, complete with a fancy schmancy reception with all the DREAMY CAKE AND FOOD one longs to eat in a day! But I will stick to my strict diet.
By now I am almost a little embarrassed as I review the previous paragraph , looking at all of the Capital lettered words. You'd think I like food a little bit! Ha ha! Being on a diet is really, really hard for me. For the most part it's not pleasant. There are always special occasions coming up ( like every Wednesday my hair comes out to my liking, or every time one of my girls says "mom I passed the Math Test", or every Friday when I think to myself, "I've exercised 5 days straight....time to reward myself with a frappachino!") Food just comes in handy for so much more than fueling my body.
I am not a disciplined person by nature. I love to refer to myself as a girl with a "free-spirit". While that may serve me well in many areas of my life, in the eating healthy area , it does not. I REALLY need discipline. I have struggled with this most of my adult life. So, today for my scripture memory verse I have chosen a most appropriate verse from His word to help me out here. It comes from Hebrews 12:11 "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Let me tell you that for the 3 weeks I will be on this "jump-start" diet, it will not seem pleasant....and for Barby Schwarz....it is "painful" to give up some of these comfort foods . (Seriously, why even bother going to the wedding if you can't enjoy the cake at the reception?!) But then I read the rest of the verse....." it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it", and I want that. I'm in. I'm in for some righteousness and peace. I long for the Lord to help me conquer this struggle in my life.
I will be praying for each of you as you work on your verse this next two weeks. I hope that your heart has been so blessed by the verses you've been working on so far. I'm overwhelmed at times, at how profoundly and timely The Lord brings my verses to my mind and works them out in my heart in various situations . God is soooo good to us. Be blessed, as you "ingest" one more verse to have in your heart to live your life for HIM.