WAIT. Webster says this about the word "Wait" ... To remain or rest in expectation.
I've been waiting for someone to be healed. And the wait has gone on and on and on. The "Wait" has been the hardest trial of my life and it goes on and on and on. Somewhere along the way I began to do less hoping and expecting. I started to just cope. I was starting to accept that it would be this way forever.
But because of God's wonderful mercy, awesome power, and love for me ... the girl who didn't realize she was coping and not hoping ... a week ago things started to change.
I went to "Women of Faith". CeCe Winan made us sing out loud to her song... the words...
"It Ain't Over"!
As we sang those words over and over tears started streaming down my singing face. Through out the weekend the Spirit of God began to remind me that it was time for me to move into a different place in my waiting. To get back to hoping. To expecting Him to do a miracle. To not look at the circumstances in my "situation" but to keep my eyes on Jesus. That my loved one would "dance again...."
And hope began to rise in me.
When I came home from my weekend conference, Mark shared with me a message he'd listened to of an awesome preacher we love to hear on line. I cried. Then got on the computer to listen...
I was reminded to take my mind off of the obstacle and put my mind on Jesus. To get my eyes off the clock and get them on Jesus.
How did I stop hoping that things would change? I worked so hard to accept this trial ... but lost my vision to keep hope in the midst of the acceptance. Some "waits" are sooo hard. And it actually hurts to keep hoping. And it's hard. But God is gently reminding me to hope and wait on Him in this trial.
I smile with a grin on my face, at my verse. It says calmly wait. That's kind of funny to me. Not only am I to wait. But do it calmly. It's right here in scripture. Thank you Lord that all my hope is in you my loving faithful Father.
My memory verse will be a constant reminder for me .
Psalm 62: 5-8
"Wait calmly for God alone, my soul,
because my hope comes from him.
because my hope comes from him.
He alone if my rock and my savior- my stronghold.
I cannot be shaken.
I cannot be shaken.
My salvation and my glory depend on God.
God is the rock of my strength, my refuge.
Trust him at all times, you people.
Pour out your hearts in his presence."
Pour out your hearts in his presence."
